Thanksgiving

Presentation went well.. and I think my bosses appreciated the effort I put in... so that kinda made me feel better after putting in quite alot of hard work, late night, and burnt sat for this presentation...and not forgetting missing out on the farewell dinner for ming.... I still feel quite bad abt it actually... wldnt be seeing her liao cos she's flying to london soon....
Well take care my dear... and do email me yeah!

Must give credit to God for seeing me through the hectic and stressful week and saw me through the presentation...

Been praying about certain things and the post below is kinda an answer from God...

Waiting and Hoping

September 17

Waiting on the Lord, Hoping in the Lord

I will wait on the LORD . . . and I will hope in Him . . . Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD! . . . Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the LORD. (Isa_8:17; Psa_27:14; and Psa_31:24)
Living by waiting on the Lord offers another helpful perspective on living by grace. Waiting on the Lord is the same spiritual reality as hoping in the Lord. "I will wait on the LORD . . . and I will hope in Him." Waiting on the Lord is not merely about waiting (that is, allowing time to pass). Rather, it concerns humbly placing our hope and expectations in the Lord God as time is passing. This is what living by grace comprises (looking to the Lord to work on our behalf and within our hearts).
Waiting on the Lord (hoping in the Lord) is a privilege that is appropriate for every area of our lives. Furthermore, wondrous consequences result from hoping in our God. "Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD! . . . Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the LORD." When we place our hope in the Lord (waiting for Him to work in our lives and circumstances), He brings us spiritual courage and spiritual empowering within our inner man.
Those who wait on the Lord have a distinctively different destiny than the wicked, than the evildoers. "For evildoers shall be cut off; But those who wait on the LORD, They shall inherit the earth . . . Wait on the LORD, And keep His way, And He shall exalt you to inherit the land; When the wicked are cut off, you shall see it" (Psa_37:9, Psa_37:34). Evildoers (the wicked, who have no interest in the way of salvation) end up cut off. They lose everything that they attempted to accomplish in the developing of their personal earthly kingdoms. They thought they could take over a portion of this world, which belongs to our Creator God. Instead, they lose it all. They are cut off forever from their achievements, as well from the God who made them. On the other hand, those who hope in the Lord inherit all of creation, as well as an eternal relationship with their Creator Redeemer.
Truly, "The LORD is good to those who wait for Him" (Lam_3:25). Therefore, let us "hope in the LORD; For with the LORD there is mercy, and with Him is abundant redemption" (Psa_130:7). Yes, let us "hope in the LORD from this time forth and forever" (Psa_131:3).

My Creator Redeemer, I want to live all my days waiting on You, hoping in You. What growing expectations You give me as I hope in You. I anticipate courage, inner strength, Your abundant goodness, an eternal inheritance, and (above all) an everlasting relationship with You. Praise Your name!

Difficult Times...

Yesterday must be one of the most trying day of my life..... I'm currently working on a presentation to the XXX... so am pretty stress.... only given 1 week to do it. Lotsa things to look into... and there are senstive issues to be touched on.
yesterday I went for a meeting with my boss to MCYS and after the cab ride...... I was feeling nauseous... I think it was motion sickness after talking and looking at my boss during the ride.... anyway, so I was feeling very sick y'day.... vomitting a few times... but yet I can't rest.. I had to push myself to do up the slides and script for the presentation....really terrible feeling.. couldnt eat anything and yet I feel like puking all the time plus I have to work on my presentation... Manage to tahan until 2am... gave up eventhough I couldnt finish it.... came to office at 8am this morning cos have to see boss boss for the presentation....
well at least now... I'm giving myself 5 min to breath before I start working on it again... It's really a mad week for me... and I have to plan my after office hours to prepare BS, do work and go for BSF and alpha.. even sat is all packed cos of the presentation...
I just hope after this sat... things will be better...

Blessings from God.. =)

Am quite tired, after a long busy day... but I tot I'll jus write this out incase I forget... Today was the last chapter of Ruth for BSF and honestly speaking, I didnt put in much thought into the HW cos I had been really busy... but God is really good cos he spoke to me abt certain things which I had kinda neglected and also reminded me abt certain things.

One of the key lessons today was how we sometimes shirk the responsibilities that was entrusted to us and consequently missed out on God's blessings. Initially I didnt think much of it cos I tot I've been taking up quite alot of responsibilities.... and it's probably time to say no to things... however, God reminded me something... just last week I receive an email from my alpha discussion leader that he will be away for business trips pretty often and might not be around most of the time. He hopes tat I'll be able to stand in for him instead. My first tot was "Oh man.... can't escape again... more work..." you see... I was hoping to be jus a spectator for alpha... and I tot my responsibility was just to be with my fren every friday.... I didnt want to have to work too hard for alpha .... and giving up my friday nites for the next 15 weeks was kinda the amount of sacrifice I'm comfortable to make... was hoping that that's all that's required of me too... but after reading the email, it doesnt seems that way anymore... although I kinda agreed to do it... I wasn't exactly very very willing... it was more like a ... "no choice rite" and "it seems like the right thing to do".... or "I have no reason to say no"... But today's lesson kinda reminded me that God could be using this opportunity to bless me... For those who are familiar with the book of Ruth, Ruth was brought before 2 kinsman redeemers... however, the closer kinsman redeemer chose not to redeem Ruth although rightfully he has the responsibility to do so according to the law. He rejected the proposal because he was afraid of losing out and "lugi".. However, he didnt realised tat he had missed out on God's blessings.
This brings me to the 2nd lessons I learned... abt how by yielding to fear cause us to lose out on God's blessings too. As I reflected on that on my way home today... I realise that sometimes I do fall into this trap but thankfully I've managed to get out of it in time... There are times when I almost end up making the wrong decisions or almost jump into things because of fear/pressure/worry/tiredness, fear of losing out... worry that if I dnt seize the opportunity now... perhaps I'll missed it... that maybe I'll jus settle for something even though I know that it may not be the best thing God has for me. Thankfully time and again... God had prompted me to wait.... wait for him in faith to bless me... Afterall, waiting is also part of claiming God's promises... we shld never succumb to fear and settle for something that fall short of the blessing God had prepared for us.

Typing this out to remind myself everytime I read it! : )

MIA

hmmm.... I think one of the reason why I decided to stop blogging was cos' I realise there are things which I dnt intend to tell the whole world.... its not that I hv things to hide... but I guess there are things tt are only meant for some ppl's ears or eyes for that matter. So that's why I end up blogging mostly abt work.. which is more neutral.... but even that has become sensitive cos u never know how much info is too much...

Anyway, I was reminded today of my grandma.... maybe it's cos of the sermon or maybe it was wat someone said ... well... I'm really happy tat your grandma accepted Christ.. Indeed thank God for his grace and mercy!! and for those whose love ones are still not saved... I urge u to really pray for them... dnt wait till it is too late. It is also a reminder to me to pray for my dad and be a testimony at home.. Although he had claimed to have accepted Christ a few years back... I really wonder if he really had a relationship with Him... or maybe his relationship had come to a stand still not long after that. I jus hope that one day when he is not so busy, he will start to think more seriously abt his relationship with God... till then I jus pray that God will be merciful towards him and He will not take him away until we are sure of his salvation.

Another tot came to mind today... am wondering if I'm really feeling low cos of work or something else. Anyway, I hope things will remain the same ... sometimes I feel so sad that things have to change... that I can no longer ask ppl out without thinking abt the repercussion of doing it.... perhaps I'm in the wrong and perhaps I shld be more careful.... well I dono..

That's all for today.... anticipating another crazy week.... ok I shld be more positive.... anticipating another exciting week :)

The Return

hi..... its been a really looooonnnnnggg time.... happen to pop by my blog today and I realise its been abt a year since I last blog..... well.... I guess I've been really busy.. anyway, tot I'll start again. just typing rubbish can be quite de-stresssing.. hahah
ok.... today I went for my bladding lessons... quite fun. I think I'm improving, so that quite gd.. but I fell on my butt today and it reallly hurt now.. other then that y'day I knock my thigh on the edge of a table and now it is swollen with a blue black... I feel like an abused child... with so many injuries!! hahah
ok.... life has been really busy lately... jus working and working... then also cos of the bladding.. but I do enjoy the bladding lah.. and I think in a sense... being busy actually feels better than nothing to do.. at least it keeps me going.. jus that sometimes.. I hope I can hv more time..

ok that's all for tonite.. will maybe give a summary of wat happen to me for the past 1 yr when I'm free. Cya