jus not up to it

r there times whereby u jus feel u r not up to it? yup that's how I'm feeling rite now. I'm jus overwhelmed by that feeling of incompetence and the tot that I'm not up to the task. I'm questioning myself and wondering what others may think about wat I do... is that what they want? am I doing the right thing... or doing everything wrong? well I dono... I jus dont feel I'm up to it today... moody..

anyway, did I mention that I've seen the doctor 3 times in the mth of July cos of my cough? I've spent more than $100!!!! although I'm still coughing now, it was better than b4... but jus when it got better, I too a bit of ice cream and cold drinks yesterday... jus a wee bit... but here I am coughing terribly again.... am sad :O(

can someone help me with my tag board?

a lazy long weekend...

ok.... one of my rare update since I dono when... its a long weekend for me since I took leave on mon... its been quite relaxing... jus lazing around at home and clearing some stuff.. and I went for a long walk cum jog at the bedok reservoir... must be at least 5km plus the distance from my home. (clap clap clap :) heheeh.... so proud of myself!! anyway, life had been ok lately... jus cruising along since the busy period. I've submitted my application to study masters of psychology at NIE but I'm not sure whether I shld take it up eventually. its my 2nd choice afterall.. ideally I would prefer to study social work overseas.. but the inertia is pulling me back. the thought of staying overseas, quitting my job and starting all over again.. is pretty scary to me.. maybe I'm jus not brave enough.. and also the money lah.. its not cheap to study overseas.. and I guess I dont want it that much to make all the sacrifices and changes to my life. So studying in Singapore and doing a psychology masters seems to be the "easier" way out. although I'm not sure if its really that easy. its gonna be tough in other sense. the tot of travellin from changi to NIE and from NIE back to bedok twice a week and to report to work much earlier without my father driving me..... that's really quite duanting to me.....well I dono... up till now I'm still not too sure why I'm going for it.. is it jus cos of the potential material gain after attaining my masters.. the prestige... or is there other reason.. wat's the purpose of all this? someone ask me recently, what's my focus in life? is it paper qualification? isit being look upon favourably at work? What will I get out of attaining my masters? is that of true value to me? I dono... I'm still trying to find out what God really want me to do. Will furthering my studies in this area help me to fulfill His purpose for me? that's quite alot of qn... and I giving myself the rest of the year to pray and ponder abt it... u nvr know... I may jus turn down the offer to study... let's see how...

oh dear

oh dear!!!! I think there's something wrong with my blog!!! I cant publish just now and the stupid tag blog is not working... help help