Blessings from God.. =)

Am quite tired, after a long busy day... but I tot I'll jus write this out incase I forget... Today was the last chapter of Ruth for BSF and honestly speaking, I didnt put in much thought into the HW cos I had been really busy... but God is really good cos he spoke to me abt certain things which I had kinda neglected and also reminded me abt certain things.

One of the key lessons today was how we sometimes shirk the responsibilities that was entrusted to us and consequently missed out on God's blessings. Initially I didnt think much of it cos I tot I've been taking up quite alot of responsibilities.... and it's probably time to say no to things... however, God reminded me something... just last week I receive an email from my alpha discussion leader that he will be away for business trips pretty often and might not be around most of the time. He hopes tat I'll be able to stand in for him instead. My first tot was "Oh man.... can't escape again... more work..." you see... I was hoping to be jus a spectator for alpha... and I tot my responsibility was just to be with my fren every friday.... I didnt want to have to work too hard for alpha .... and giving up my friday nites for the next 15 weeks was kinda the amount of sacrifice I'm comfortable to make... was hoping that that's all that's required of me too... but after reading the email, it doesnt seems that way anymore... although I kinda agreed to do it... I wasn't exactly very very willing... it was more like a ... "no choice rite" and "it seems like the right thing to do".... or "I have no reason to say no"... But today's lesson kinda reminded me that God could be using this opportunity to bless me... For those who are familiar with the book of Ruth, Ruth was brought before 2 kinsman redeemers... however, the closer kinsman redeemer chose not to redeem Ruth although rightfully he has the responsibility to do so according to the law. He rejected the proposal because he was afraid of losing out and "lugi".. However, he didnt realised tat he had missed out on God's blessings.
This brings me to the 2nd lessons I learned... abt how by yielding to fear cause us to lose out on God's blessings too. As I reflected on that on my way home today... I realise that sometimes I do fall into this trap but thankfully I've managed to get out of it in time... There are times when I almost end up making the wrong decisions or almost jump into things because of fear/pressure/worry/tiredness, fear of losing out... worry that if I dnt seize the opportunity now... perhaps I'll missed it... that maybe I'll jus settle for something even though I know that it may not be the best thing God has for me. Thankfully time and again... God had prompted me to wait.... wait for him in faith to bless me... Afterall, waiting is also part of claiming God's promises... we shld never succumb to fear and settle for something that fall short of the blessing God had prepared for us.

Typing this out to remind myself everytime I read it! : )