When will it be good enough?

feeling pretty demoralised, disillusioned, disappointed, sad, tired, feel like giving up... well. my paper for ministry had gone through so many rounds and levels of vetting that I'm starting to feel really demoralised and disappointed with myself.... Am I that bad..... how come it never seems to be good enough.... I'm really tired with the paper now... I'm so sick of reading it that I can no longer spot the mistakes or look at it with a clear perspective... let alone try to think like a perm sec... and write in such a way that will convince him.... hai.... I'm darm xian .... I just feel that I've disappointed my bosses and caused them so much trouble hvg to vet it again and again... that day my director even ask me to his office lah.... and now it seem like I'm on 24 hrs stand by cos my bosses are calling me on my hp day and nite cos of the paper.... anyway, its due for submission by this fri... so by hook or by crook ... it has to be submitted... even if its not good enough...

After that I'll hv to worry abt the presentation to perm sec.... that's gonna be really stressful.... public speaking is not really my cup of tea.... esp infront of all the big shots...and I think there will be at least 40-50 ppl... and I'm the first presenter lah.... and I hv 1 wk to prepare...... dono how am I gonna go through this....... I've been so tight up with the paper that I've been neglecting my counselling.... not been seeing my clients for 3 wks now... and I dont see my buzyness and stress level going down until the end of the mth...... hai....... I wanna break free......Some day I'll fly away.......