The responsiblity of an adult.....

I'm starting to have feelings of aversion towards work..... Can't exactly pinpoint why... but I guess it could be cos of the different issues/things I need to handle... continous flow of issues and problems... the need to think on my toes all the time... the politics... the competition (not so much the indiv competition but more so the group).... the pressure to perform.... discouraging incidents/ encounters..... lack of understanding from others... different working styles....well maybe abit of all that..
I remembered not so long ago... I actually was very motivated at work! I even look fwd to going to office each day... I felt challenged and I was motivated to do my best in the projects I was involved in... and the meaning I get out of working with my clients.... I felt intellectually stimulated and I was happy and fulfilled ....
But it seems now adays... this kind of feelings is slowly deminishing....(esp. after I came back from China) maybe its cos I'm doing things cos it needs to be done... or cos someone asked me to do it.... But not cos' I want to.... maybe cos' I fail to see meaning in the work I do ... at least for now.
well.... I hope I'll be able to rekindle that passion I once had... hopefully things will be better after I start seeing clients again... (fYI: I'm doing staff/policy work for the past 2-3mths.....) well.... but seriously .... wat's the meaning in all this .. I think I need to sit down and put more tots into this .. else I dont think I can survive long
ok... I may not make sense in this posting... cos its 139am now and I'm probably just babbling away...